Feeling better

I apologize to those who had to read my last post, it was not very nice. I deleted it from the blog but saved it so that i can have it, even though i may have been wrong, i felt it and i want to remember what i felt. I am feeling much better tonight. I have realized that maybe someone received a new heart today that has been waiting a long, long time, and that is part of the reason Libbi got moved. This person has been an inspiration to me and my family for sometime now and we are so happy for them! I am not certain of this but i'm pretty sure I know who it is. We couldn't be happier and we can wait 2 more weeks if others can wait years. I miserably failed my test. I hope to do better on the next one. Thank you everyone for being there for us during this difficult time, although others are going through much worse.

For those who missed the last post, surgery has been moved to Sept 25, 2 weeks from tomorrow.

Sweet baby girl

I wanted a few before pics of Libbi's chest so i called my cutest neighbor to come take a few, it was so last minute i really appreciated her doing it!! They are seriously the cutest pictures, i told her she needs to go into business and use Libbi as advertisment cause she is so darn cute!! Thanks M!!
(be sure to read the next post about surgery being POSTPONED! Yup you heard me.)

These are just a few of the many cute ones but i need more time to narrow it down to my favorites!

Postponed

Got a call tonight that surgery has been postponed until ?????? There was an emergency transplant they had to do tonight and then some new babies born that need surgery within 5 days. We will know in the morning when it will be. If we want Dr. Birch, the surgeon we have chosen, the soonest is Sept 30, but if we choose to go with Dr. Kaza, it could be next week. Stay tuned........ and AAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BYU! BYU!

Libbi's first Cougar game was today and she is our good luck charm!! We beat #3 Oklahoma 14-13! BIG upset, but as Kurt keeps saying "We knew we would win, no big deal" Ya, he's full of it! Is she not the cutest fan EVER!?!

Faith

I saw this picture and lost it. I have been holding up really well, at least i think i have, but the last couple of days have been rough. I'm not sure if it's all the questions, the phone calls, or just the reality of what is happening. I have been living in denial. I like it better there. I just barely realized earlier this week that Libbi is having 'open heart surgery' and that they will stop her heart and put in on a bypass machine. I don't know why but i did not know that, again the denial. This picture is comforting to me, although it made me cry. I've said it before but i really think that Libbi knew 6 months ago, before she came to this earth, what she was in for. I have to think that to make it better. I have to have faith. We are doing a fast for her this Sunday and would appreciate any and all of you to join in. That may be lame to post on a blog but i don't care. The more the better. I helped Jolene with her ladies last week and quite a few of them said they would put Libbi's name in the Temple. I just kept saying 'ok thank you.' I wasn't about to say her name is already in the Temple. We will take as many prayers as we can get. We need them. Libbi needs them.

A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E

I was cleaning up and Libbi was in her room having a bottle, when it's time for a nap i have to just lay her in her bed, she is not a snuggler and just gets mad if i try to hold her when she's tired. Anyway, i heard her screaming, and not crying screaming but like yelling! I went in and she was holding her EMPTY bottle up just yelling at it!! Obviously she was mad at the bottle for not producing more food! I couldn't stop laughing! She's got her moms and sisters attitude all ready!!

Pics of heart cath

This is her very own handmade Strawberry Shortcake hospital gown. Thanks AnN!! She is one spoiled chick!
She loves it!

Trying to pass the time cause she's hungry!!!

After the procedure. I hate the look on her face.

She was grabbing onto the rails so tight, she was cracking us up!

Get me outta here!!

On our way home.

I hate the puffy eyes. She's trooper though, she wasn't even bothered by her legs.