We got the call today from Linda, the scheduler for surgery. The date has been set for Tues June5th. Her presurgery cath will be Monday May 21, i got that call an hour after Lindas call. My emotions are running wild. I wanted to express them so i'll have this memory. I can't believe its here! I remember her being born, almost 3 years ago. I remember being so worried and afraid what would happen when she came. We didn't know if she would live or not. The Drs couldn't tell us how her heart would do on its own, without help from my body. She came on March 20, 2009 at 2 in the afternoon. After whisking her away quite quickly, they passed back by our room with her all loaded in the life flight transfer-mobile (thats what i named it!) After just a few hours we knew she was going to be just fine. We thought, with just a few surgeries, we'd be able to take her home. Well as the few days passed on, she came home at day 5 with NO SURGERIES!! Her little heart had a mind of its own and had figured out just what it needed to do to keep pumping. At 6 months old she needed her 1st of 2 open heart surgeries, called the Glen. This was to be a 2 week hospital recovery. She did amazing yet again, coming home in just 5 days!! This surgery was do-able. She was still a baby that slept alot. She didn't quite have that 'mommy' attachment. I could step out when i needed to, she didn't know any better. When that was over i remember thinking "Ahhhh we're done for a LOOONGGG WHILE!!" Well, that long while is now up! Its here! 2 1/2 months and its here. I truly don't know what to think, or say or feel. I'm scared to death FOR HER. I will be fine, i'm an adult. It will probably be one of the hardest things i'll ever do, but i can handle it. I have support from many, i have my Heavenly Father to lean on and I'm an ADULT! She is only 3. She is so innocent and tiny. She won't understand why she hurts, why she can't talk, why she has to stay away from home for 3 weeks. And i don't know how to explain it to a 3 year old, i don't know how to help her. It breaks my heart. I wish i could trade her places. I'd do it in a heartbeat. Thats all i'm feeling for now. I'm sure there will be many more posts to come in the next 2 1/2 months.
Birth

1 year old

2 years old

Almost 3 and sassy as ever!!!