Dads Thoughts...

Since finding out about Libbi's heart condition, I have never felt so helpless but at the same time felt like I have so much control. As a Dad, I have always felt like I can fix anything. If the kids broke one of their toys, bikes or anything else, I could go out in the garage and fix the problem. If their was any home improvements that needed to be done, I could do it. If Mindi had a question, I could answer it. If the kids were sick, I could help them get better. These kinds of things were easy and in some cases were a lot of fun for me. But after learning about Libbi's heart condition, I had no idea how to fix the problem. I knew that this problem was way out of my hands and that there was nothing I could do. I felt so helpless. Then, and this was huge for me, when we were meeting with the doctor from Primary Childrens and he was explaining Libbi's heart condition and how severe it was, I felt horrible. But then he explained that the big hole between the two ventricles was for now a good thing. That because of this hole, the left ventricle could pump for the right. As he was telling us this, my mind went directly back to two blessings that I had given Mindi previous to going to Primary Childerens. In each blessing I tried to say that Libbi's heart would be made whole and perfect, but I couldn't! The only impressions that I was given was that Libbi was a very special girl, that she was comming to our home for a special reason and that her heart defect was there and there was nothing I could do. BUT, that Heavenly Father was taking care of her. In both blessings I knew that Heavenly Father was in charge. Not me, not even the doctors but that Heavenly Father was. I know this may sound wierd but when the doctor was telling us about this huge hole, I again recieved the impression that this was the way that Heavenly Father was taking care of her and making sure that she would make it here. At this point, I felt in control again. Not that I could get some tools from the garage (or Brents Hardware)
to fix the problem but, that I had the Priesthood and that I could use it to bless Libbi. Other tools that I have to help Libbi's heart is prayer, fasting, faith, hope, and love. I cant believe how much Libbi has already blessed my life and I hope she has already blessed yours. I am so grateful to a loving Heavenly Father who knows me and my family personaly. I am grateful to have a great wife to share this challenge with. She is such a strong person! I love the gospel and am grateful for the savior and the gospel truths that I know. The Savior has truely lightened my burdens. Thanks to everyone who has been praying for us and Libbi. Please keep it up. We need it! I hope that because of Libbi, all of us will try to do a little better each day, that we will love stronger than ever before, that we will be more charitable and kind than we have ever been, that we will desire to be more faithful in living the gospel than we were last year and that again, because of Libbi,I hope each of us will grow closer to Jesus Christ and our Heavenly Father. Thats how she has blessed my life so far.